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Saturday 23 October 2010

:( no time no time wheres it gone???

Sooooo sad ive not been about with illness and work and kitchen fires and grrrr things happening along with my newly accuired sleep to contend with after 30yrs of insomnia , time has disappeared on me :/ I'm missing fb my yo friends and my ranting diary blog here.
Thank you to my friends and followers for popping by and their lovely
comments,during my previous rant of my usual huge pile of crap im hoping for good blogging to follow x:)

Weather here in uk has been unusally lovely and sunny very cold brrrrrrr but beautiful sunshine makes a huge difference.
Driving home from work we had a purple sky and the sun shone from beh
ind me on with a golden glow over the autumn colours of the trees and fields and was SOOOOOO beautiful i cant even begin to describe to you, i really wish i had a camera but from now on im gonna try to remember to take one it was sooo beautiful i had to stop and try and take in the stunning view - when you see things like that it makes you realise how wonderful it is to be alive despite all the crap that surrounds us we have a stunningly beautiful world!

Diet not doing to well but despite this i have lost a few 1/2 lbs over the weeks and finally back down into the next stone :) and only 1/2 off my first 1/2 stone, how
ever :( in saying that ive so so had a bad week - self sabotage i guess, what made me do the bingey thing think it may be for relief of the previous weeks of stress im back to it now though and plodding on hoping to much damage has not been done !

Gonna have a look for some pics see to brighten the blog and maybe given
a second chance i will capture that stunning scene i was privileged to witness the other day in the mean time here are some local views where i live in England xbengies farm local woods
hope you enjoyed a little of England :)

Friday 1 October 2010

laid up again grrr


Well - here comes the colds/flu's and bugs grrr
No work today :( i cant move 2 weeks ive had a sore t
hroat which has flaired up to burning today ive had a stiff neck for last 2 days along with a headache today i cant move my neck or shoulder and its tight to breath
OMG! im sooooooooooooo FED UP :(
My leg (Sciatica) and back pain has just starte
d to ease (although not gone) but for goodness sake ! give me a break :((
What on earth did i do to deserve all this shit - 5yrs of serious c
rap an extreme amount of people i love dying my son almost killed my mum with major op at same time and now needing full time care my daughter not being able to concieve to continue her family thats not bad enough ... apparently not .. every electrical thing that could go bang has gone bang and more than once tv's hoovers, washing machine, dishwasher, dryer etc i mean everything ! and the vehicle omg i must have shares in the car industry every single vehicle several times and some we had to renew Then with all the crap i get ill to the extent it wipes me out and makes me useless in every way :( thats took its toll on my body and face :( i always looked 10 yrs younger i not only look my age but im not far from looking my mums age (NO im not kidding it is that bad !)
And then that EVIL thing called MONEY poor willy having to keep us on his own while i wallowed in self pity aka depression and menopau
se, hes had to carry the full weight on his shoulders with our savings vanishing to next to nothing.
And just to top things i have this body in pain every bloody day getting fatter and catching every sniff or snuffle ARGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!


So what else is up now, lost my singles darts game despite throwing superb darts :/ oh well - but tracy got though and dee almost did - we have the 3 aside and the team knock out just one more round to get through and we w
ill get some sort of cup after missing the pairs by one point :(

I have lots to do at work at mo, and really cant be having ti
me off but i cant drive today cant move my arm and neck and its painful i really cant sit there and concentrate with this pain.

OK rant over :/


Any thing good happened :/ errrrrrr NO! simple as that! im plodding on with all the shit thats still coming at me and even whilst typing this im tr
ying to think of one good thing.... but i can think of nothing :(

Gonna put some photos on so have a browse and enjoy
the rest of my blog - be good to ignore the above lol :D




My new great neice Grace with her daddy (my nephew) paul

My viks garden pretty much finished now just some nic
e planting to do and a bit of pathway :)

Lots of balloons flying over my house was lovely to watch :)


Garden is tidy and new lawn is flurishing few bits to do but think now the weather is definately changed its back inside to finish the bits in the house - the last bits me hope :/

My fluffy tuppence

My fluffy tuppence

tuppence

tuppence