Is it time to think things are not gonna get better?

Today i had to take our lovely little Tikka to the vets, they have kept her in . She has a uterus infection but thats the least of her problems , once they clear the infection they will operate to spay her however she has had a cough and sicking some phlemy stuff the vet is concerned that she may have tumours in her chest. The op she had to remove the lump on her mammary was cancerous and they did say that she could get tumours grow in her chest :( so our biggest concern is obviously that - she is having xray and blood tests they clearly cant op on her uterus if she has chest tumours we will know more in the next few days. Initally we need her to get over the infection. The vet didnt seem  optomistic on the out come :( :(  Just seems every horrible thing that can happen to us does  :(

I just want to have a little longer with her, before she goes to be with my mum and dad  - Finding it all very upsetting she such a lovely placid lazy little thing

This kind of luck????

Ummmm do i consider the fact i got £50 of petrol today lucky - well i might have done but this is the luck i have after putting filling the tank on my car decided to leak OH YES it was all over the forecourt of the garage :S and i was 30 miles away from home GRRRRRRRR 

THATS JUST MY KIND OF LUCK !!  
And then after rushing about for petrol and paying out for viks too - they fill up the local garages and even the ASDA one and now they are definately not striking over the bank holiday which was obvious as the unions have to give 7 days notice :/ doh!!!!!

Also we piled up our vehicles for the Auction with the intentions of getting a good spot but strangely ha ha ha (i have to laugh before i sob!) the auction has been moved to next week ARGHHHHHH

YEP just my luck !!!!

ON TO OTHER THINGS   ...


THE DIET 

:D yep lost 2lbs very happy with that as it was from the monday (when i had gained) to the wednesday so 3days or rather 2 ish :D :D however, cos there is always a but or however, i did binge a bit yesterday :(  couldnt stop myself and i do now know the reason why :( the dreaded has returned pmt UGHHH not had it since xmas - menopause kicked in and i thought at last that is that - but its back - oh well i now have to learn how to cope with diet and that cos thats a huge down fall for me .
Back on the good side :D i have done really well today  - prob due to being busy and the above mentioned trauma - i didnt even think about food and thats how i used to be and want to be again !!!
PLODDING ON THOUGH :D

Other news  
not much really  - Worried about our tikka shes not eating much she quiet and in her kitchen basket instead of here with me keeping eye on her shes seems to be cold and fragile looking today - ive let her laze instead of exercising her shes been on quite a regime of renewed living and eating and her and tups collide :/ i give her a rest period away from tups and do the same for tuppence -  mostly worried about her not eating as she is usually a greedy dog  ummm ... just have to see how she goes 

Liams staying with us (grandson ) but it seems now hes never going home and i think he should have some times home - reason why vik wants to move i guess :S

Back to walking to the church with my sister after her little episode grrr but wont go in to that im putting it aside LIFES TO SHORT!
Mum had a lot of flowers my eldest sister Sue has not been there since the day mum was buried not even given us any flowers to put there - shes in denial i believe  - kinda shocked mums no longer here but then again who isnt - i know shes not greiving as the rest of us are but other think its unfeeling of her , they dont know however, why but i do and kind of understand i know what shes like for denial she used to throw her bills straight in to the fire unopened a case of if i dont look at them and get rid of them , then they dont exist  :/  Seems most the others went for mothers day and left some thing there -  we tidied it up as they had just put stuff all over the place and it looked messy depite the lovely flowers . So its all looking nice now MUM would love it and be proud.


So thats it then ... pain is back in my knees after a good day so gonna go dose up and try to cat nap i know its gonna be a long night :S
 
 
 

BEAUTFUL SUNNY DAYS IN THE UK

WOW BEAUTIFUL WEATHER :)  yes the sun is here in the uk early summer well lets hope it done follow the path of the last couple of years we had beautiful aprils 2 years running and no summer April flash in the pan and sun was not seen again. They say the colder the winter the warmer the summer and we've started having some bad ole winters but other than like i say above) April sunshine the rest of our years were dull and wet and cold - PLEASE let us have a summer it will be soooooo nice to enjoy our beautiful country for a change.

This brings us to clearing the garden (yes everyones out there ) and time to sort out our pool big clean up the snow damaged the tiles but i think we can fill and make do so the pools is available for those leisure moments we might get.  (pics from other years liam enjoying the pool)


ME IM OFF NOW TO ENJOY

 

Needing to get on with things ....

OK  - I seriously need to get on with things  - started my Diet put on a lb grrrr 
The house is a mess - the boiler fitting meant that part of the ceiling needed to come down and so it still remains down :/
The tiles not gonna be laid in lounge yet as we need to look at sound proofing due to idiots living next door let their kids kick footballs about on uncarpeted floors plus their usual noise as they cant control their kids at all

Due to the lovely weather we have taken the opportunity to start clearing the garden (having so much rain in England we have to take advantage) so course all thats started inside has been halted , sadly the garden looks worse than when we started  :/ well so far ughh! We have been forced to move the green house so that we might have room to 'hide' hubbys building gear and the log pile and hopefully get our swimming pool back which currently hosts some of it :( and of course this couldnt be a simple push a few feet job  -NOPE - we've had to dismantle the lot and the contents are all over the garden 

ughhh :/ My own fault

Do not dance whilst under the influence of a few vinos and pain killers :/ its good at the time but once they wear off ughhh been in agony and strong pain killers have not helped to much :S
My own fault - twas nice however to have a bit of light relief and bop a bit just coming back to earth hurts :/

The diet  ummmmmmmmmm bad me bad me 
i binged today  - however ive paid for that to cos this evening ive had a tummy bug - i dont think its anything ive eaten as its not the sort of food to cause it just rubbish crisps and chocolate arghh 
NOT happy with myself i was struggling but wasnt so bad - i know i eat with pain and tiredness and at the mo im both HOWEVER i begin again tomorrow!

Ive done a few sit ups despite my pain as i know it helps to move and exercise, ive not done many but im trying and resting when i have too. I soooooo hope this gets better soon darn low blood pressure and stress had me fainting all over the place now ive fallen and hurt my knees and in turn as i shifted my weight its now put my spine out of line so back pain toooooooo :(

Im not writing this week off. just begin again tomorrow to late today the damage is done and now im sick too ugh maybe that will help me lose a few lbs although i would rather not be sick if im gonna be the least it could do is help with my weight :/

So other than upsetting my daughter getting fatter and sick not much else happening  
The day was absolutely beautiful me and the dogs went to the park and i had a lay on the grass whilst they played - some pics follow ....

 

ummm home truths hurt it seems

Well - seems ive upset my daughter  - ~Im not happy

Shes  wanting to move house now -   pity she didnt think about that before we spent all our time and money on it grrrr along with allowing liam to (it seems) just do as he pleases

Shes seem extremely discontent with everything other than danny :/
Im not blaming danny but it does seem hes come on the scene and she doesnt give a shit about anything  - she manages to stay here about 2 seconds and only longer if she wants some thing - im bailing her out where i can and it seems shes still not paying round


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ive continually advised her not to do this because this will happen or that could happen etc but no can she listen COURSE NOT  ;/  and i clearing up the mess most of the time   :'(
Im worried about her too  poop poop poop  :(

bathroom

 

 Well bathroom done - even the airing cupboard with all towels and bedding stacked and folded :D the blinds not up and rad cover required  but its sooooooooooo nice to have a clean - easy to clean bathroom, ok i compromised on what i wanted but i didnt want to keep waiting forever and this i could have and finished WHICH i have :)  and its nice enough!

MASQUERADE PARTY !

My friend Tracys son Craig, was 21 last week and she decided to put on a masquerade party for him, We had an excellent time good food music but mostly my friends and family were there heres the pics 

Liam (grandson) as gowly owl

ughh moi :/

LMAO cat woman 

Liam and girlfirend Rachael

Grampy will and liam

Phillip (craigs brother) and fiance chelsea

Barb and Tracy (Craigs mum)

Ma biatch Vik and me

Vik and hubby kev

Vik and her mum Dee

Moi and hubby Will

Really lovely cake !

CRAIG NOW 21!!!

My viki with her partner danny

Me and my girl viki

Will as dick turpin :/ lol

john (dees hubby viks dad)

John and dee

Whats new ....:/

Well - Im living in hope that my Auntie Vi's funeral is the last for a  very very long long time . Trying to move on - sadly there are still the trials and traumas of this life attacking me - my sister upset me long story but she has  got rid of her little pup poppy, shes gone to a very good home and probably better off with someone who will love her.  But despite the issues between me and my sister through this, i have put the matter aside - life moves on and one thing i have learnt its far to short. Shes my sister and we all have faults, shes been told off. This week was  her birthday so she is away, it gives us both a break ,

I had a visit from my niece joanne huge problems and she keeps coming to my door with them  :/ its so difficult but i help where i can.

This last few weeks ive been in pain, my knee injury from the fainting falls has errupted again :( darn it i thought it was healing :/ so just without thinking i shifted my weight to the other leg this only caused more problems my back now niggles with pain and my other knee is suffering the strain  - been to docs stronger pain killers are helping and a night out with some vinos  (see next post re the masquerade party)
Doc told me what i knew  - I need to lose weight and oh yes I KNOW I DO UGHHH

SO .....
THE DIET Begins again :/ ..

I have maintained the 4lbs weight loss despite my diet out of the window again during the recent bereavements and pain.

I know have to kick my butt big time i really have to!!!!!!

watch this space i guess .... diet starts again tomorrow along with exercise .

So we had St Patricks day (Irish holiday) we also had St davids day (Welsh holiday) and soon St Georges which is ENGLANDS  holiday :)

BUT ........
TODAY WAS MOTHERS DAY 
I had flowers card and pre diet chocolates (namely maltesers )
from my Viki - liam got her some choccies and a pressie
Had a text and fb chat with Nick in Mexico - its hard to send anything as its so costly (i do miss him )  


Ive had a lazy day today mainly because of the night before  my friend tracys son craig was 21 and we went to a masquerade party - was good :) (see next post)

I didnt visit mum's grave today - yes you would think its the day i should of all of them - but i thought better for the rest of my family to go and allow them to do what they wish there flowers or what ever, i will be back next week to sort it .
Also i have taken a moment to reflect on my mum i miss her so much - i wish i could send flowers to heaven but i found this and its just for her 

Hubby got some superb praise from top architects - hes currtently subcontracting for a firm working on a house for a mulit millionaire the work is adding new to old and a very complicated gable of flint and brick with a broken plinth had to be got over. In the meeting of the 'big wigs' the gable was commented on QUOTE (from agenda) The gable end was one of very complicated contstruction and never during the whole of my career have i seen such a excellent result UNQUOTE the subcontractor highlighted the agenda notes and gave to my hubby with a huge amount of praise 
YES my hubby built it - apparently hes done it so well they can not tell the difference from the old and new, nor that the plinth was ever broken and also the difficult construciton of the elevation levels. 
Sadly his day was marred by the theft of half his wages (cash) having been stolen from his van 
i did feel sorry for him and its left us having to juggle finances as it was rather a lot of money :/ 
I doubt he will leave his van unlocked on site again, and its a sorry day you cant trust those you work with but i guess thats how it is these days TRUST NO ONE!

So on that note ... im off to post the masquerade party a very pleasant night :)