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Monday 25 June 2012

The queens birthday :/

Not THE Queen but the mother in law Queenie :/ she was 90 sunday












Weather changed for the better after a wet morning and was lovely - was nice to see a lot of people not seen for a while and actually turned out to be a very nice day

Saturday 16 June 2012

long day

So did the auction not much there thankfully including that dog :/
but also the carnival just a few pics its been a long day dogs are knackered as am i off to zzzz


same as my merc in classic car section awww want mine up and running too :/





Also some pics of our allotment coming on nicely i thinks :D




Friday 15 June 2012

Birthday week 52 been and gone

Ive had a really nice week - 3 meals (wrecking my diet :/ ooops ) spent rather FAR to much had a facial some nice gifts and been out several times . Auction tomorrow, hoping that grrr dog isnt there it cant be allowed, with children there to bite people 

Im off to have my hair done next week  :) all in all its been a fairly good week and for the first time in years i feel close to a kind of peaceful feeling - there is still that bite of sadness due to what was my friends :( i guess its always gonna be there ive not totally put it to rest yet but it will come and its not hurting me as it first did, i guess thats called acceptance.  I guess what sticks out most is the question  WHY, why did they treat me like that ?? maybe something i will never know.

Diet not doing so well - struggling to get back on track but stil trying 

Still need to get on with things and its been a tiring week, i decided early on i wanted to enjoy the week and put everything aside but its back to the grind now .
Hubby is working hard but fathers day weekend and hes having sunday off ABOUT TIME
he has to finish his sisters conservatory but they have found him more work with patio's etc :( we need our own done but the money will go to out holiday so guess i cant complain, still it is nice to have him home some times he cant keep doing 7 days a week :( Although he will be working here i when he is back but this year we want it finished finally !


so thats it for now - all is quiet on the Martin front - and things are slowly getting better 




 
 

  
 

Thursday 14 June 2012

good times - better times to come :)

Well oooh at last 
Firstly im at peace with myself - ok its a daily fight but at the moment im quite content
There are issues but im ok putting them aside i dont want or need it in my life

So good birthday - as per usual the 'Friends' let me down but hey who needs them 

Hubby is paying for beauty treatments
Viki /danny gave me money (i asked for vouchers) but for the same so same difference
Nick/viri sent me flowers wine and strawberries
liam got me 'diet' chocolates aka maltesers lol :D and flowers
sister got me some flowers too 














one friend paid for lunch and got me some garden vouchers - feel it was half hearted - as previously said im biding my time then will make my escape i really truely dont want to be around her any more than the other -shes let me down big time and all she does is some false loyalty - wouldnt be half so bad if it wasnt so evident - so i have cut down my contact with her and soon i will cut it off . Some events force me to hang on in there for just a bit longer then bye bye thanks for nothing!!!

But still - every thing else is going ok :) got my mg sorted - wish it was the merc but hey ho its nice to have my own car back
Dogs are getting fat more exercise needed , which brings me on toooooooooooo........



THE DIET 
ummm its not been good this week although i have tried - i think im holding my own i have made pretty good choices with one indulgence i think its more down to quantity after a more reduced food intake - ironically since the 3 meals ive been out for this week ive felt hungrier :( its 2am and ive just had to get something to eat :/ not happy but i was hungry and couldnt sleep , its the first time hopefully have it back in check next few days  oh and i chose a bit of chicken - without bread sadly over indulged in bread today :( - feel bit pmt although ive only had one since jan - we will see but its not helpful


Thats it for now folks - its 2.21 am and i need to zzz now been a good week :)



  

Sunday 10 June 2012

Advancement of the age thingy eeek!

OK so im old tomorrow :/ well im old today it just gets a confirmation of a year worse tomorrow :/

Had a good weekend at the Beer festival :D sold some surplus stock of paintings - odd how the exhibits take all my oils and the fetes and festivals its all my watercolours

Anyway made a bit of dosh and got rid of the surplus paintings :D :D

Nothing set for the birthday tomorrow - Mondays are difficult for birthday events :/ so dont know what to do
My viks is Tuesday - money for her dont know if shes doing much, shes been out for the weekend

Im a bit knackered from saturday but may go shopping tomorrow if i get the energy, hoping to get my car back :/ hoping the bill is light  eek

so oldie me is on the way















AND MY VIKI :)









Tuesday 5 June 2012

still numbing :/

Odd feeling this numbness - i have had it before, the good thing is that stuff that should hurt doesnt - but with pain you know your alive - this numbness is a limbo , its currently a relief from the sadness, from the hurt my 'friends' caused me - ive been able to go on as 'usual', actually had some nice days - struggling with getting on with things but thats not unusual at all . 
I wish things were different and i know i am better off numb to everthing at the moment, maybe its part of the healing process, however, its a strange strange feeling. 

Hubby been home 2 days this week, its been nice bit of short money week to come but he rarely has a rest.
Sister her hubby and my vik and co were round monday for bbq - was a nice day. It was also a difficult one in that my neutral 'friend' my 'friend' of over 40 years also had a bbq and invited my so called 'friend' (as they are best buddies now) but never asked me, how could she do that over 40 years and she asks what was MY 'friend' to go and not me . Its not painful any longer, as i say i have this numbness come over me, but what sort of people are they ?? what sort of person i she??

oh well biding my time - things will change after september.

The diet

so i got back down but put 2 on over the holidays :( unhappy as i didnt think i had done anything that should have destroyed my hard work - and the result was today i had a crisp binge grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
kick me kick me :/

back to it tomorrow all is back to normal

So its rained all over the bank holiday and our extra day due to the jubliee the celebrations were superb in many ways
we did get most of yesterday ok ish and bbq'ed but its been miserable

Today has been a seriously lazy day (lazy eating too as above grr) 
not much else going on  so im off to zzzzzzzzzz

 
  

Saturday 2 June 2012

bit of numbing nothingness :/

Odd week  - ive done little and struggled to do that, little happening so nothing to move for ... viks car mot'ed mine is but had the rad pipe blow so went straight back in :( however the alignment still not done so back to another garage wednesday then hopefully i might get to drive the damn thing - Hubby working :( fed up with it but as i said before his sister has waited along time, they are only charged 1/3 of the wage cost (mainly cos he could have been working earning full wage)  hes working at a loss but if he could for family he would do it for nothing but he cant its just not financially viable nor fair he has a business to run he cant do FOC as much as he might like to - small jobs are ok but not extensions and conservatories etc. Hes nearly done so maybe he will be home to finish ours off .

Hes home jobs are getting the kitchen lights fitted then we can plaster the ceiling :D
The lounge floor may get put down

Later down the line ....
I want so units built :S hoping that may get done
The pool electrics need to be done, so kitchen can be tiled
Nicks shower electrics and shower then tiling
Bathroom shower
Our bedroom ceiling plastered, decorated, carpeted and furnished -
The spare room papered and carpeted -
The office papered and wooden floor fitted
Landing - we want a velux - ceiling plastered , decorated and carpeted
Kitchen once above done electrics etc - we will have a resort of units new fridge freezer and cooker wall tiles
The conservatory needs a re-vamp
and the swimming pool needs repair

Then we are DONE ummmmmmmm :)


The diet :)
Im back to my lowest and seem to be holding it - not to good today :S but hopefully ive not done to much damage - its been a strange week ive really done nothing ive felt quite numb and in limbo not sure why
But still  trying :)


Like i say cars are pretty much sorted :/ i have art exhibit coming up paintings mostly done - 
Not seen anyone - guess it shows how much i mean to my so called friends oh well i do feel better for not having their dramas and feel more settled, ive lost more important people permanantly so losing some friends that dont really care about me anyway wont be so hard.- actually no where near!!


So bank holiday and jubilee weekend and YES its RAINING :/ how typical is that i cant even begin to explain the change in the weather i was melting this last 2 weeks - couldnt sit in it, it was so hot AND i loved it :D now its cool and raining, just heard thunder :/ ugh!


Dogs are bathed, carpet freshened and their baskets washed 
House is pretty tidy - love how quickly i can clean my bathroom - heaven takes minutes and just looks good all the time :D

Done a bit on the garden looking lots tidier and got my new chair - had hoped to sit and have a drink round the  chimnea but :S nope so watching cowboy builders hubby likes to sit and complain about the idiots that bring disrepute on his profession lol 


So im having a vino and watching tv and then off for a bath :)









 
 

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