Happy 2013 to one and all :)

Well a very good christmas 
Crappy 2012 ended on a good note - with an on going problems for the last 2 years finally sorted out thank goodness :) :)

Lots of changes throughout 2012 lost some friends that i thought a lot of they clearly didnt feel the same about me, i dont think i will forgive them ( although i am now speaking to them) we are not likely to go back to  how things were, ive not been asked back to darts :'( - ive been replaced :/ but well if thats what they want there is little i can do about it  - im moving on ...
Just saddened that, thats how it is :/ oh well !!! 
Had they really wanted to put things aside they would have said come back to darts lets put things back as they were and forget about it. But i think i was asked to put it aside so as to ease their consciences.

My viki cooked christmas day with the help of her partner danny was  a lovely meal and a lovely day all enjoyed and you all know how much i hate cooking so whoo  hooo :D
I had some lovely gifts .... nick got me the solar owlies that i was after and didnt think i would get (to many other things to pay out on :/) and some zinfendal Viri sent me a plant and chocolates  Viki/danny  got me the perfume i asked for and a couple of serial killer books :D - liam got me the calendar i asked for :D and his girl rachael got me some lovely babycham glasses with chocolates - i need some more now :D Tracy got me some sanctuary body washes etc which she got me once before and i am now addicted to - its well nice! omg the mother in law gave wilf 200 quid omg omg ummm sh so must be ill :/ :/ and she gave me 20 gift voucher not sure why after all these years!
my sister georgina got me a fluffy blanket :D she knows me well ha ha 
 Wilf and i dont buy although he got me some stuff ive yet to tell him about LMAO!

I got a beautiful mantel garland made with lights and silver berries to go on my new look fire place

the girls with their chritstmas chews :D

eeeek me in dannys hat :D

liam in dannys hat :D

wilfy will in dannys  hat :D

nick in dannys hat :D

all british dinner by our vik

oh wow DANNY in dannys hat lmao :D

viki in dannys hat :D

                         Excellent day and time had by all :)


The old menopause thing kicked in from boxing day and i struggled the week with cramps but New year was ok and we partied at Tracy's it was a good evening and we enjoyed till about 4am when we rolled home thankfully just one house away he he he !

tracy and her son craig

wilf with alan

The menopausal pmt hit back again and ive had a very tired week, ive struggled to do anything as i sleep when ill :/ but ive got as much done as i can - trying to get back to normal

We started the lounge floor in october but wilf wasnt about to finish he worked really hard and we got the main area done in time to put the tree up still stuff to be done but its a whole new look to the lounge 

tuppence 'helping' out :/

 Black floor bit new and extreme from white to black whoo but i like - although a major cleaning task i think  - wilf did offer to get me a steam cleaner for my christmas present :/ :/ i suggested that i get him one and he could get me perfume and jewellery :D

So the new year is here im wanting it to be better than the last 7 - im looking at it as my 7 years of famine so now i should get 7 years of plenty !!!! 
2012 wasnt quite as bad as the previous 6 although we had bereavements and i was let down big time by my closest friends :( and by one of them for a 2nd time - sorry no more chances this is the last one.
As for the friend thing - we speak , i mentioned above nothing will be the same i stayed friends with T i wasnt being blamed for being 'jealous' or causing the problems i will never trust her again she has no loyalty and looks after herself.  I had done nothing, so i rode with things and shes now licking she got what she wanted from V   it was all just  to keep herself in the dart team -  now its my turn to be licked as i think shes realised she almost lost me as a friend,  little does she know anything between us is on my terms not hers and actually i look after myself now too!
But i can play the game also - i can be two faced (in reltailiation i might add i dont like to be like this and cant quite stoop to their levels ) i do what i want these days and they get included in my time if and when i choose.  How things change T never bothered with me for over 4 months but now things cooled off she's wanting to come out and go shopping all sorts well so far ive complied as its suited me but i have things coming up so she will be on the back cooler and i will be around when i want to be. As for V shes seeking solace else where, my nick said her status on fb were well depressing i guess the consequences of  her behaviour affected her badly too maybe when the drink wore off she realised what she had lost?? who knows.
D and J have been a bit aloof and ive told wilf to treat them the same just say hi and walk on j made a point of saying hi to wilf but practically ignored me well who cares - they are just acquaintences now.

So i will be looking for new friends and new experiences - im looking for new things in my life
The depression is passing - its a daily fight but im on the better side of it now and feel so much better the weight losshas certainly helped ...

oh yes the DIET  :/ umm well im up and down ive totally relaxed of late and im doing a 6lb bouncing thing but on the whole maintaining - im now trying to get back to it and i want to lose at least another stone but preferably 2 and i will be happy - then there is the cruise coming up !

So thats about it folks a quick update im off to bed now i have the sister and family  round tomorrow night for chinese :) 
i now need to zzzzzzzz