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Saturday 14 December 2013

Back again :)

Well ... here i am after a long break
2013  ... 13 unlucky for some but lucky for me :)
2012 ended with a long outstanding problem finally resolved it gave relief and a hope of better things to come with the new year.
The one outstanding problem i was still trying to come to terms with was the 'friend' problem
the hurt and pain it caused me will be with me forever regardless of it having been 'resolved'
I put things aside and moved on with pangs of pain hitting me occasionally - i lost weight whooooo
yep and without to much effort

However, ive been unwell diagnosed with fibromyagia ummm whats that i hear everyone (including me) say ... long story for another post but it explains a lot of how and why i feel so tired all the time and unwell and because of it the 'diet' is out the window and lbs are piling back on. Every time i feel better and get a new resolve back it comes and hits me.

Its been a good year for pretty much all else ive been happier busier and things have been generally good
We got to cruise a much much over due and needed  holiday was superb im a sea sicky person but nope not once who knew we were on ship certainly not me :D
The biggest ship in the world  (at the time) 
We went with my sister and her hubby good company and enjoyed every moment of it.

We are still working on this house :( it seems it will never be completed we decided not to alter the bedrooms but liam has been staying and thought 'his' room wasnt up to scratch and we just dont seem to have wardrobe room in ours so we've gone ahead and done what we had thought of doing in the first place and just before christmas as usual we are up to our ears with dust and building work and short of money due to over spending on building materials once again  ... still it is the last it can only get finished as of now ha ha ... i can but dream

So the family
Well my nick is back with his wife in mexico and finally her visa is sorted they will be coming back in february and i finally get to meet my daughter in law 

Liam is a college/working boy he has an apprenticeship with an excellent company 

My viki and her partner has just got back from holiday as much needed and overdue as ours was 

they are all doing well and im so proud of them all 

we have had hiccups like i say im attacked once in a while with this fibromyagia  wilf had a real bad flu and lost some weight on a heavy job during our heat wave a chinese whisper of will looks like death warmed changed to hes got 2 weeks to live :/ but im glad to say hes fine and well and we put the rumours right stupid people! but hey ho! 

The friend situation has been resolved but as i said above i dont think the pain will ever leave me - im back playing darts and i can laugh with them and enjoy their company but some thing is missing namely in me :( i have a doubt that i will ever forgive and it saddens me) 
Still things have been put aside, just as i had begun to move on so im wary.
There have been a few bereavements but not so close i guess 2 hit me one being the death of the lovely lovely lewis collins loved him since i was a teenager and was so saddened nearer home a girl i went through school with also died :/ 53 i grew up with her but we were never really friends still ive known her forever and she was there in my daily life for a long long time its scary to think that all those around us are going and time is so short to be doing what we want to have acheived in our lives.
 
Tonight wilf is on his christmas do all my friends have had theirs too only me not doing it as i dont work actually of late ive done little i need to get back to it but just not been able i hate that all the strain is on wilf
I dont feel i can go to my friends and say come on out with me its some thing ive lost and not really found in them since my return :/ but im no longer putting my eggs all in to one basket im looking for new friends and that may happen easier if i was working or getting out, so thats the goal im looking at for now.

So less of the morbid stuff ... 
I have an art show coming up and im so tired i just cant seem to get it off the ground but ive been here before and i will get there.

2013 gave me some happiness less worry and better times a chance to start living again and im now able to work on it THINGS WILL GET BETTER THEY ARE BEGINING TOO :)





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