Gone Missing ....

Had a browse around as ive not been on for some time, took a look at those i followed some have not posted for anything from a year to 5 yrs only a couple it seems has stayed blogging, Some have simply Vanished :/ i did find some have re-routed not sure why or what thats about but was saddened at losing some bloggers One who i followed now says i have to be invited to read the blog - well why fking post on a blog if only the selected few can see, sorry i dont beg to see anyones post. I see i still have my very few followers bless them and a few have gone but i have never had any big audience if i move i will post my new link on each of my followers page so they know i still would like them to follow me  (although goodness knows why they would or should, my blog is not up to the standard of any others that i follow on  here)  Sadly instead of gone fishing my bloggers have gone missing  :/

Im back ... again again again :D  ....  who knows for how long ... last few years have been busy and erratic . I now work 2 days a week, its been hard due to the Fibromyagia but i refuse to be left without a life i lost to many years to depression to let this rob me too.

I have also had my son and his wife from mexico living with me, my daughter in law is delightful, sadly she is finding it hard missing her family and friends she has made a few but for the most she is stuck, i think it would have been better for her to have  had a job. My son has become all anti social, goodness knows why, i dont know whats changed him. I do my best to help my daughter in law socialize but im a  'mum' figure not her chosen partner in life nor her friends and i feel sorry for her as there is little else i can do My boy needs a kick up the rear end he just says to her and me 'you' 'she' wanted to come i want to go back to mexico. i think its becoming a contension between them, with the festive season upon us i think she is feeling it more than ever in june they have to make the decision to stay for another 2 1/2 yrs so she can get citizenship or to go back which will leave her restricted in returning and if she then wants citizenship she will have to begin the 5 yrs again :/ 
All i can say ... I've done my best for her .... at the moment i feel its not been enough , i cant make my son take her out and socialize its an issue they have to sort out.

I now get to go to xmas parties with work which has been nice 
I have a new set of friends from work which eleviates the offset friendship i have with my once 'close' circle - i still go out with them since our 'reconcillation' but for me something is lost im even considering giving up darts ... well we'll see.  One problem is i no longer have a bestie that is local and here for me I wish my old buddy sharon was nearer. My new work friends all live out oxford way i need some new local friends maybe i need to do what my daughter in law needs to do and go find some thing new to do and meet new people still it doesnt replace a bestie that has been around forever :'(
I dont have that anymore and it would be a long time replacing but i will look for new friendships anyhow and see what happens./
My old friend the betrayer is well in with my once close friend me?  im just 'a' friend now no texts for me, i do occasionally get invited out with them but they do shit loads without me and im no longer a confidance, im usually the last to know. But all said and done it no longer is an issue with me it doesnt hurt like it did its just left me to find a new path that ive not found as of yet. That pain hurt anger and sadness has passed, i feel rather empty and indifferent towards them, maybe they are as they are as they now realise im not the same and things wont ever be as they once were with me?
in the mean time i just trundle along i go out and about with them if and when i want to now a days not at a drop of a hat as i used to , i pick and choose just as they do and im content with that i dont give them so dont expect much if anything back.

Still life is ok - we had our first cruise round the med 2013 and now booked for next year round the canary islands so something to look forward to.
I love my job but as i said its been hard due to health and just of late they seem to be overloading me, prob cos im good old do anything for anyone and do it efficiently but im tired of clearing up others mistakes and being given all the work as the others are either unknowledgeable or lazy :/ :/  so at the moment its spoiling a job i like muchly :( 

House is getting slowly nearer completion how many years is that ? i did think last year was the last year but nope this year was the last year but nope it looks like we will still be doing stuff next year but what ever mess i have to live in thats it no more !! 
Our neighbours have moved cant say im sorry but do wish it was the otherside, dirty people we have had mice and rats in our garden and house OMG thankfully we are not like them and they were quickly dispersed but with filthy people next door we were told its probably only a matter of time before they come back we just have to take precautions with traps and such to prevent them 25 yrs and never seen a mouse let alone a rat then those dirty creatures move in and they are even in our house ffs ! not happy at all!!!!
Relieved for the moment that we are once again clear be good to get rid of the vermin neighbours they can take their rats with them !
Weight ... well i lost 2stone kept it off for 2 yrs got back to my old friends and routine and here i am back where i started, Fibro makes it difficult i seem permanantly unwell (nothing new there then - just a different illness :/ ) BUT im still trying !

so now im off to have a browse through old blogs i liked see who is where doing what 
i guess ive missed a huge amount but thats life i guess !