i want to move on - i decided to move on
Clearly its bothering me - loss of a friend (or two as in my case) is always going to be a brain stinger
However, im not to blame i know that - they are the ones with the problem(s) YES im miffed - more than miffed quite angry but i had thought it had subsided but seems its still here in my brain hopping about just when i least expect.
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A sadness and almost betrayal i guess sits within me - im ok with moving on although a bit suprised that, that hasnt been more of a problem, maybe i didnt need them in my life anyway, i think its the anger of being blamed for something im innocent of !
I lost my night out - the game of darts i loved to play too so it wasnt only their freindship taken from me it was other things that were part of my life and which i love to do .
so here i am doing my usual vent hoping that it will empty my brain of the ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Im just trying to sort my paintings out - i think the stress is coming out in them. Im really not happy with 2 of them and only have 18 days left omg :/
Ive been unwell the last couple of days - sickness and cramps :( maybe i just need a day of recovery
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