But if exercise or aquacise what the cost ?

Aquacised it tonight was good - but for the price a huge increase so dont think i can warrent doing that again £300 per year i think not :S  not happy quite enjoyed it The gym member ship includes but is £500 a year :S  - i cant jog at mo because of the knees NO impact training :( not that i think i could anyway  - so no skipping either best aerobic work out - arghhh so walking and some light exercise at home ' is all im gonna be a doing ' :S so miffed !!!

Diet is not going so well - i need to get weighed - hope no damage is done i just got to lose 10lb and under 200lb :D so really dont wanna mess it up but seems i have i had self sabbotage BUT im still trying - will go tomorrow see the damage :(  hopefully there wont be any - well i live in hope!

Both sisters gave me money towards the vet bills - tikka is back up and running almost better than before a new lease of life  - shes lost lots of weight now and finally at her correct size shes getting back to piggy ways but she is controlled on her food now so not to bad just need to get her fitter soon i hope i can go run and the dogs can come with me and stay fit too :)
 

bit of self sabbotage on the diet eek!

OH DEAR - what am i doing :/ im   whoooo hoo im down under 200lb and very pleased with myself sooooooooo what do i do :( :( yep i have binged 
couldnt stop myself - i know your thinking 'course you could' but i went in to some auto mode and it was eaten before i sat down and though NOOOOOOOOOOO!!! 

Really upset with myself - what on earth am i doing ??? i worked so hard the last few weeks, through all the stress of tikka and other stuff and i get here just to sabotage myself .

Im hoping its a one off - i used to eat 'blindly' and then by the time i opened my eyes and looked at what i was doing the binge had happened but i thought i had that under control . I dont think its that old pmt thing that attacked me with a vengeance each month ive not long had one but its difficult to tell because of menopause throwing everything up in the air and you dont know whats what or when :/
So my main goal as of the next few weeks it really to keep going as i have and cancel the self sabbotage stuff .... only 5 months to the wedding eeeeeeeeeeek

Trotting on :/

Sister bought me a little chimnea fry pan from her holiday - excellent will hopefully get to try it out if we get some good weather back - hoping the little flash in April wasnt our summer :S :S

THE DIET :/ eek - well not so bad 
I'm not eating so well - trying to get back to eating regularly (but mostly not making bad choices) today is a good day - did have another loss so 8lbs lost now just over 1/2 stone AND got back in to my previous jeans :) :)  which did suprise me thought i would have to lose more next goal  is to have them to big for me  - well im trying :) :) just need to keep it up !

 
 Off to darts 3 aside knock out - would be good to get a trophy this year for some thing 
so thats it for the moment 
Much needed night out i think def wouldnt mind a chill and a couple of drinks :)


 

yeah good signs with tikka and whats on or off for easter

Well so far so good  - Tikka started eating on saturday she has a good day we took her to farmers auction as i needed to check she was eating and wanted to monitor her - she wanted out of the van and liked trotting around but i put her back to rest regularly and to keep her warm - she got home her tail was up and she virtually skipped out the back door  :D
Shes been sick a couple of times worried as it was after her meds :S however shes still holding her own - not eating so well today but still with it slept a lot more today - vet wanted her in this weekend but im financially wiped out it would have cost £400 on top of the already £1400 paid :/ however, shes done really well and im thinking the vet is either over zealous or im a good money bag for them ummm :/ :/ 

DIET 
'cough cough '  2 easter eggs scoffed :( bad meeeee  im comfort eating missing breakfast think its been down to the worry stress and just as i thought my pain had gone its back again with a vengance  - :( it  hurts lots :( 
chocolate now gone maybe get back to it tomorrow - i hope so friends wedding is in september was hoping for some result by then and also back to docs week after next :/ need to show im trying - easier said than done sadly 
so back to begining AGAIN eeek

EASTER
no doing much but cleaning and tidying and not much of that now either now my back is paining me again legs are achey but not so much pain as previously 
Hubby has been out in garden we moved the green house and just putting it back together 
The swimming pool lost its tiles during the snow we had so its a total re-furb we also didnt like the red pavers on the top so decided to re-new as we are doing it hope to find a nice stone colour.
logs and wood has been tidied up and some of the building gear most behind the wall where green  house used to live - finally got a permit to get rid of the rubbish so will do that next weekend i hope.
Got birthdays coming up and pay for hen night - really dont know how to pay round at mo also replacing the cost of dog - its hit us badly :( no holiday for us again and my car isnt on the road either :( :(  oh well i shes the most important cant  we will catch up 


Well thats it for now me thinks HAPPY EASTER ALL :)xxxxxxx
 
 
 
 
 

news on tikka

videos of yesterday then again today - some improvement still praying

She  seems to have improved slightly yesterday she was a lot more shivery and reluctant to move today she has gone out on her own to toilet and had a roll on the rug which really suprised me - shes still not eating but that could be down to the infection or meds but also after ops some dogs do stop although i did think she would have started again by now so currently feeding her via syringe . still praying for her and i heard a bit of snoring a while ago she hasnt done that since her op so all encouraging just sooooooooooo need her to eat!

whats going on ....well ummmm

Well the news about Tikka so far so good but vet bill has wiped us out - its all  upset me greatly and its been a difficult week 


The diet  :/
Well good and bad news - bad first get it out of the way yep you guessed it diet out the window stress and worry over tikka and paying for her vet treatment :/ been eating rubbish more and more no skipping last few days BUT back to it tomorrow

Good bit is despite the above ive lost 2lb whoo hoo :D well chuffed just hoping ive not sabbotaged myself so like i say back to it tomorrow :S

Little else happening  - specially now we are skint £1400 vet bill is not funny my sister has lent me some till next week which has helped but OUCH - we still have the boiler to pay for eeek but the can be juggled my car wont be back on the road any time soon :/ i still have the corsa the tank seems ok now i will just have to manage.
Viki has had some one call her back for a job so fingers crossed she needs a good little job
Birthdays are due Will 51 on 17th money short now so not much happening for  him maybe a nice meal out then liam 25th  he will be 15th 
Pain has eased in my knees and back not gone but more manageable still resting up want to make sure they are better before i try getting back to normal just dont wanna be doing this again i know from the past if i get back to it to soon im right back where i started in no time. 


Easter is this weekend 

We have just had the hottest march since 1964 this weekend we are forcast snow - its already crept into scotland  hmmmph who would have thought  grrrr  typical or what !

Thats it for now folks - im off to bed not been sleeping so well :/ that dont help with diets and i am well tired relief tikka is ok :)

 
 

promising news :)

Well our Tikka is doing ok :) first bit of good news is no tumours in her chest phew!!! so they were able to operate (had she got tumours it was a no go and probably they would have put her down :(   ) she then had to have her bloods done which showed anemia and low glucose they didnt want to operate till they were up and stablalised but the infection in her uterus may have made her more poorly it was a choice between two evils :/ she could  have died during op due to the anemia and gluclose under anesthetic but if not operated on the infection would continue to make her ill and then to an extent she may have not been well enough to operate at all and then die  - i chose to go for it rather than wait and do nothing she has a strong heart and i thought it was the best of the risks SO she was given glucose and antibiotics and had the op yesterday - she woke shortly after and her gluclose was level she still wasnt eating and she has stayed at the vets, the wanted her to stabalise with the glucose levels and have her eating to keep them up shes been syringe fed and although could have come home tonight i didnt think i could manage the feeding i would rather her be more stable. shes apparently perkier although vet thinks shes shy of other animals being there but she possible scared she has always been at my mums never went far only other place she came was here with me ive spent my time walking her and shes got used to come to new places although some times reluctanly - shes was put on a normal dog diet and quickly lost the weight and got fitter (even jogging with me lol) which we needed for her first op to remove the lump on her mammary it was cos of this lump and the recent cough she had that the vets thought she had tumours on her chest as its quite common with a mammary lump in dogs we got her through that and she was jumping and running around was amazing so shocked now this has attacked her .
I am assuming it was something to do with her season that she picked up an infection i only noticed when she stopped eating as she's been a greedy little thing (my mums fault really and the carers :/ umm they fed her 3 bags of dog treats a day !! was suposed to have one treat from a bag per week :/ )

She needed to get through these last 2 days since op which she has and its gonna be 7-10 days before a proper recovery so its still up in the air but shes held her own shes a little fighter and 12years old 2 major ops shes done damn well
I prayed for mum to look after her and let her stay with us for a while . i think she has watched over  her girl :)

our tikka