A prayer for those i love please God grant them the gift of a child please hear our prayers and help them to get their child its heartbreaking for them please please help them  AMEN

THE GOOD BITS 2019

ok so hubby and i have been married 40 yrs .. we were supposed to go to the valley of the kings egypt but do to my back injury we have had to defer it ... however we had a lovely trip to london and a ride on the london eye  ...with champagne :D

We became great grand parents .. good as conceiving was difficult and our great grand daughter is delightful ... we just need the other grand child to come this time we are praying so hard .. i dont know if hes listening but i hope he is and grants them the gift too

we have won practically everything at darts
for me the singles most wins
friend the pairs most wins
3 aside knockout
pairs knockout
runners up in team knockout
the league singles 79 points next team to us only 57 whoo hoo
pairs league

Now didnt we do well !!

We are going to ladies day at ascot this year .. my daughter is 40 this year and intends to do 40 thing before 40
she is getting married but finances and venues and everything has postponed it but we will get there and so will she :D

ummm anything else ... nope i think not !



i missed out 2018 but cant think of much that happened that stands out as so good ... how sad is that

ahh we did a cruise with my sister sadly eek theres that word again .. the back pain spoiled it for me and it made me realise i couldnt do the valley of the kings .. only to defer it and then get a steroid injection ummph they might have let us know ...
i cant think of much else for 2018 theres just been to much of everything all the time :( overload so im going to leave it there for now

Umm seem to have skipped a year :/

Well here i am again .. lifes been shit .. for what 15 years i guess so many losses ive lost count every thing going wrong cars and electricals and well you name it  :/ :/


So nothings changed ive had bad health and pain from my back and sciatica i now have another pro lapsed disc ,, next stop op with rods in my back  ARGHH ,,,,

This year hit us with several losses but most of all the heartbreaking loss of my great nephew ben 21 killed in a car accident on his mums  birthday .. the tears are flowing as i type one of the most heart wrenching of the extreme amount of losses we have had 5 days older than my grandson
We also had the loss of a baby, just a few weeks old but none the less they had been trying for so long and they are heart broken and desperate to become parents it hurts me sooo much to see them suffer

we have had the usual pay out pay out work work work it seems never ending

work has been shite so many changes no staff still stressful and ive had enough i love the job its just to much now :(

ive finally got the hubby home some weekends and of his own accord hes decided to stop smoking (think he was 10 or 12 when he started) .. not sure whats bought it on but good on him ... however, im sure the werewolf will surface at some time soon :O

my 'friend' is moving things have been ok with 'the friends' but this one didnt even tell me she was moving even though she knows i know now (found out by default) shes not discussed it with me over 40yrs we have been friends .. things have not changed much i guess betrayed and of no consequence other than when she needs someone/thing  ... well shes moving on i doubt despite our 'friendship' that we will see much of her we havent done since she befriended my 'friends ' ... ahh well such is life

my lovely merc has gone we made a bad decision and let some rogue (cant put here what we really called him) do work on it he caused £3500 worth of damage and made the car lethal to drive .. only clipped the break fluid pipe ... we could have been killed  :(  lesson learned wont make that mistake again
we sadly bought a bad replacement cost us a lot of money and looks like the one we have now will need sorting too but it is overall a better car to spend money on but i preferred my old one and miss it

hubbys van bit the dust we paid out and the replacement blew up .. lost another lot of money bought and old one still fair cost it did him for a while, it was worn and ready to go but we were lucky enough for a change to find a good priced one and in good condition . so car shit yep tons of it .. would be nice to just have a break from paying out on vehicles

the pool has a leak .. took the trees out incase of roots but its still leaking we cant find it we emptied it renewed everything .. still leaking gonna have to live with it for now and top up when necessary

oh yeah that fking diet ... heaviest ive ever been and cant do anything about it ... well i can stop eating entirely .. thats my next game plan  ,,, @ honey monster lives .. thats me :(





so usual shit just another year .... ive decided to write my good bits on a 2nd post  ... keep them seperate

2018 well that was much the same as above .. illness loss payouts etc,,, de ja vue