A second blog - creating and crafting

So how are things  ummmmm kinda ok 
Today I have made a new blog for my crafty stuff gardening and general bits and bobs i like to do and enjoy
Creating and crafting, arting and gardening

I may change the title later on, but best i could do for now, i will add things here as i build like the quick get there buttons etc...

So the diet  ummmmm
its kinda ok whoooo :D
lost a few lbs now almost back to how i was 3 years ago - its slow but it going down, had some yo yo times especially recently birthdays upsets and stuff but still working on it. At the moment im ill ughhhhhhh sicky bug and the terrential rain has not stopped so despite not minding jogging in the rain this is Noah's weather - flooding and not to warm some days - yep the heating is back on :/

So onwards and downwards with the lbs :D its getting noticed - many have noticed sister said she didnt recognise me when i stood at the top of the road waiting for her - shes on diet too now - oh yes we have a holiday next september! I had hoped this september i would be just another stone lighter for the wedding but im getting there just need to get back into some exercise but sicky thing is holding me up grrr maybe mid week.

Other stuff?? got tickets to Ascot racing via the Sun deal so cheapy and a day out 

We have most our holiday payment, hubby has finally finished the weekend work phew

lots to do around the house - but least hes home now to make a start - but a rest first i think!

Friendships well ive put it to the side - some days are hard some days better i dont bother to much any more despite missing my night out and darts and being with the girls BUT you just cant allow people to think they can treat you like that and get away with it , hubby and i did go out for a drink and they were there i just acted like i didnt know them, actually i guess i dont they certainly are not the people i thought they were :(

The other friend thinks its ok what shes doing but as i say - biding my time she's pretty much in the back ground , shes not bothered with me so im not making any effort - why should i shes left me to stand alone and believe me she had much to say before all this kicked off - little do the others know!

Things feel generally good - the menopause thing hasnt entirely passed sadly :( had a bad week recently with the old usual and its still a daily struggle with the rest of it. Last week may be why ive managed to catch this sicky bug it always has left me suseptable :/

Car is done although garage broke the window so it needs to go back but im glad to have it back up and running - merc is still sat there littlest said the better GRRRRRRRRRRRR

I so miss my car :(

The allotement is coming along fine :D the shed is up and now looking newer , Liam has painted it as part of his work experience . Rabbits and pigeons eating our crops so netting netting netting :S We'll sort it !

thats it for now - tired due to sicky bug and want to finish off some of new blog :)

THINGS WILL GET BETTER :)


   

the end is nigh - well only for some friendships :/

I have come to believe that there will be no saving my friendship with my so called friends - my best friend of 40 years has pretty much gone off with my other friend since the disagreement with her, yes i still went on the hen weekend but shes not really close to me anymore - she was polite and stuff but i'm definately secondary - actually i dont know why shes not just gone and told me to get lost - Me? well im biding my time - just the wedding out the way and thats it .

I am sad but even tonight and this weekend the guys are away and she would normally ask me to go out with her or to go round but nothing - yet (as she lives near) i  heard earlier the sound of laughter so shes not on her own - either a girly night or out for one and i guess im not included

The thing that hurts the most is that ive done nothing - one has a bad day takes it out on me so i walked away and the other my 'best' friend of 40 years pandies to her - basically (excuse the french ) but fuck me - what do i matter . Shes always looked out for the best for her shes done it many times once leading to a major row the only real one we had in 40 years but she treated me badly and then thought it was ok basically the same as the other one has now - Is it me, i have questioned this but NO its not, im really easy going i never caused either row and i never treated them as they have treated me, maybe they thought they could because im easy going?? 

It had deeply hurt me im still whining about it, i know, i know  :( but its painful and upsetting and im continuously getting my nose rubbed in it , im struggling to get well im almost there things are getting better health wise but dealing with this sort of thing just doesnt help 
HOW COULD THEY  how could they be so nasty and cruel i would never be like this with them and i think thats what hurts the most.

Well i guess thats my venting for this evening, im feeling bit lost and lonely and friendless and SAD

so with a tear in my heart i will say night and look at sleeping for and gaining strength for the next fight to carry on


 

Hen weekend - adult content in some pics :S

In recovery had a good weekend photos are not as good as they might be - cant imagine why !!! lol

buzz came to the rescue

OK removed the more ADULT content :/ eek :D:D

Excellent weekend but back to reality with a huge bang!!!

Hen weekend went well - enjoyed it but really tired now - in recovery  however, it wasnt f  long before reality checked in - the 7th year of crap has not ended  i returned home to find the news that Chris_Barton aka Chris Fulham had joined many other i care about and had passed away suddenly at his home - also my errrr 'friend' has her nan i seriously ill in hospital after a stroke not expecting to live  :( despite our recent disputes i still love her and her family dearly and wish i could be there for her but under the circumstances its not possible - some one said life sends us all curb balls but this isnt just curb ball its a nightmare i cant seem to get out of - im so tired of it - This year has been better than some generally but no better than last year in losing people 7 this year and month 7 although i have only been to 5 funerals ( i may see if i can go to Chris's) im only up the road - never got to meet him personally but we were close 'internet' friends for many many years enjoyed each others company had a lot of banter going on and chatted lots on uk chat i miss him there already  but still i considered him a freind  SO RIP Chris xxx