sunnnnnnyyyyy dayyyyyyy oh yessssssss!! thank you

BEAUTIFUL SUNNY DAYS 

Loving it !!!

Despite all the crap from people - im chilling out in the sun and 'bleep bleep' them !!! :)

Who needs any of those in their life anyway  - i have the most important people around me  my family they are all that matters to me  - i no longer trust anyone one else - when friends of 40yrs let you down then you know its all just fake ! so TRUST NO ONE is my motto 

They smile to your face but when you need them to stand by you all you get is disappointment  - time and time again its not only happened with me its happened with many others i know. The only hurtful thing is that you trust them so no more of that - i do my own thing as of now.  

So  lovely day again second week of sunshine - way hotter than we are used to even when we do get some sun cant lay out in it - shading is required but who cares its gorgeous

Not much done today - house desperately needs a clean but i will do tonight if not to tired or for the rainy days (or if we keep this weather perhaps not - house will be horrific by then lol)

sat in garden with the dogs (bit warm for them) Got a bargain rattan chair from the auction as per photo to follow - £5 they cost £199 im hoping that there may be another next time - and its not just a one off - finally got the foam for my other bargain conservatory sofa and chairs which we bought for the garden although it seems to nice to leave out but it was only £10 hoping for sunny weekend as its bank holiday and jubilee so monday and tuesday off extra to add on the weekend 

 

continually disappointed in people but still i move on ...

Well another on slaught from the so called friend - she wont let things go cos she cant see her own bad behaviour, ive told her to stay away from me i want nothing to do with her and yesterday had to change my phone no. - i have to face the hen party with her :( and the wedding - after which all ties will hopefully be cut although if i want to go to my local club of which im a member, she will be there due to the fact she practically lives in there.  I cant allow her to continue to bring me down with her behaviour so im going to just ignore the fact she is there. The other 'neutral' friend will have her day shortly that after the wedding, no falling out but i will not take on any activity with her, 40yrs friendship and she stood with my other friend (they only met through me) ive not seen her through out this - some friend, she had her second chance after she to thought she could treat me like crap - TRUST NO ONE they are all out for theirselves - i wasnt bought up like that, i was taught to help others and respect them yeah everyone has disagreements with a big family like mine i should know! but you compromise or agree to disagree. This is some thing different though, and can not be resolved with a them and their bad attitudes yes i could go 'lick' and pretend but no i wont stoop to that level. I did nothing despite being blamed (only to cover her own short comings) i dont feel i can allow her to get away with it, she has disappointed and disrespected me hugely for no reason. Oddly despite her recent out burst, its not upset me as it previously did - i guess i now see her with different eyes as i do the other one she has been no where near me well so be it , just biding my time!

The diet  yeahhhhhh back on track lost the 2lb i put on plus one more so well chuffed and pleased to be back on track.
Really want to keep going i feel so much better i can now run better what a difference a stone (14lbs) makes 


My nick has had his birthday now - not recieved his card in mexico but hopefully it will get there soon hes doing ok viri has english classes going and now 11 students well done to her!


vik had a weekend away to a christening - seems she has little time since danny has been on the scene :( but liam is here with me a lot she now has a job which is helpful she can get back on track she will be at the hen weekend so i wont be alone 


liam is doing fine hes on work experience with grampy next week 


Its bank holiday weekend plus the diamond jubilee :D so very long weekend with the   2 days holiday 

Tikka is doing well - as is tups - i got bitten by a jack russell dog  grr it went after tups i managed to get her out of its way and was holding her up on my shoulder the dog jumped up and bit my arm OMG OUUUUCHHH

 Photos dont really show how bad it is its now more swollen too was worried about the bleeding part getting infected and it has now got a huge red circle around it but its not appearing festy :S so hopefully i wont need to go on anti biotics  - the dog has been reported but i dont know the owner so little can be done :(

Ummmmm what else ? Hubby is working weekends to finish her conservatory its been waiting for him to do it for a very long time but i would like him home and more so i would like our home to be getting sorted :(
still it will be a bonus wage for our holiday i guess. 

Art show on the 9th and  mother in law :S :S :S is 90 and will have a party on the 24th 

Well thats about it for now - hopefully the weather will continue would be good to bbq this weekend its cooler in the mornings hot in the afternoons and warm in the evenings cool but not cold at night so if it at least stays similar it will be good :D 

happy birthday to my son :)

OMG  my Nick is 29 :/ how did my baby get so old so quick?

Ive not heard from him today, guess hes out celebrating maybe i will get a call from mexico later this week :D

 

Least its not all bad ?? ummm

Well, The good news  :D its hot hot hot decent weather at last :) Melting weather love it but omg its HOT so so nice wish the swimming pool was up and running, the bad news  darn snow damaged the tiles so its under repair (which will probably drag on as hubby is working 24/7 as per usual)

The MG back on the road - well kind of :/ the good news it only cost £300 well that was until today when the rad pipe went for the 2nd time :( and steering issues grrrrr so its back in the garage but least its being seen to - just hoping its not to much damage to either car or purse !

Shopping today in Oxford - couldnt get the things i wanted did get some much needed new underwear, be good to go back to Milton Keynes for the things i spotted there but that depends on the car.  Feet are killing me and of course its hot so mega melt down wow came in and jumped in bath before did any thing else1

Bicester beer festival is in june so im working on paintings for that - sold 2 at brill was good to have bit of profit for the work done others can go in the festival show so maybe they will sell there

Errrrrrr nothing changed on the friend front - and not expecting it to - still sad but getting through it.

Liam will be on work experience in June with grampy ha ha we let you know how that goes 

The DIET

Well, not weighed yet but i think im doing ok def back on track with food choices my scrappy scales showing a loss so hopefully that little gain i had is gone !! and pleasssssssssssse let me have lost just a little more !
Jogged the track was well chuffed, done lots of walking and a little bit of aerobic at home , just gonna build up, its rather hot to be doing to much without falling in a heap .

Allotment is going on ok hopefully now the rain has stopped we might get some growth instead of drowing everything 

Well think thats it for now off to soak my feet they are still aching even though i had bath   :/

 

RIP Robin Gibb of the Bee Gees

Robin lived just up the road from us at the prebendal near the church RIP

my fave beegees song was sung by him
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mc5oqjFsT5g

Art Exhibit

Well got my 4 paintings in - its all i had time to do for the exhibit this weekend - a lady complimented my paintings which was nice
I'm hoping i have some sold if not they can go in Bicester bee festival exhibit but it would be good to see some money back :D

Things still painful but i have to hold on as there are things to sort out then i can cut my ties :/ things could change but im not sure i want them around me now - look how much they cared ?? not one hoot!

so what else ..... errrrrrrrrr 

The diet grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr another lb on but i did get weighed with jeans on so maybe they could weigh more i never usually wear them for weigh in but im back on track with food, still tired though and sleepy i need to get back to jogging just cant manage things at teh moment :(

AHHHHH my MG is being done :D thank goodness be good to have it back on the road been long over due 
We are hoping to get the kitchen lights sorted soon - i would like the tiles down in the lounge but hubby is working weekends at the moment.

Tups had a lovely birthday and a nice huge chomp chew :D

Nick has been sent his card 'well funn' little mexican men singing  'its yoourrr birrrthday today' pmsl and he has had his birthday money
Viki is next will pay for her car to get mot then see how much left to give her
Then omg its me 52 how on earth did i get old - was only 2 minutes ago i was a silly girl only a minute ago my viki was a babe in arms now my grandson is a man OMG where does time go.

So thats the news for now - im still feeling down about things when your best friends hurt you its difficult to get over without the added hurt of losing many i love - what friends  :(

ok ok i keep harping but here i get to harp cos it lets out my pain it helps me and its me i need to help whatever anyone else thinks - after all they are looking after theirselves the way they have to!
Its all left me sick inside and i have to get it out so blah blah blah snivel snivel snivel :( i will get over it, its just time (hopefully)

Early night - off to exhibit tomorrow see what else is on show :)

  

Nothing seems to change - i have to question if it really will get better :/

Things as per usual not so good  - seems I'm the one that did 'nothing' but im the one blamed and lost out, my so 'called friends' are out and about winning darts gyming together having fun and me who never caused the problem in the first place the villian of the piece ??? WTF ? 
I keep trying to move on but its hard when you are the innocent party and it seems they that caused problems are the ones rewarded. 

I thought myself kind and unselfish there is little i wont do for anyone in fact i spent all my life doing for others, for what ??? to be trod on and treated like some thing nasty on their shoes.

I'M FED UP WITH PEOPLE HURTING ME . 

So with that bit of ranting out and off my chest what else....

THE DIET :(

Well i put on another lb :( really not happy with myself, i have tried to kick back in to touch as of today its not been to bad a day but it could have been better and im still in sleepy mode so struggling to do anything, upset doesnt help and thats all i seem to  have  -  hey ho fight on !  

My tuppences birthday today :) she is 4 bless her 

i love her so much, her love and friendship has no conditions  she loves me back 'whatever' :) i have no one that i can confide in no friends i can trust and family do their own thing :( so she is my companion and i love her to bits :)