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Sunday 26 September 2010

what next?


Well the most horrific photos have just been deleted omg am i really looking that old :/ i know illness has taken a heavy toll on me but omg omg ! The deleted photos scared me :(

To add to my misery the diet went out the window and its weigh in tomorrow :( how the hell did i get here and how on earth do i get back to being able to look at myself and accept what is showing ?

Begining again on the diet tomorrow, to late for the weigh but at le
ast im still trying!



Im looking into botox ... oh yeah its that bad :/ it dont seem fair my friends are being told they look 10 ~+ younger but not me, i get called grandma and 60 yrs old with the usual extract the urine comments :(

what did i do to deserve all this? ? All this crap ive had in the last 5yrs to the extent that i become ill only to wake up from it looking like a scraggy little old woman 20yrs older than i really am.
Well i have to begin again but i feel to tired maybe thats not helping to my old age look, one thing i know is i cant stay looking like this :( i just cant what ever the price, although the cost has already been extreme im now having to pay the price too !



Goodies???

well kinda, hubby finally has a pickup truck for work its older than we wanted and hence cheaper but its a good work horse for him, was a long journey its worried me a little that hes accepted the first truck hes seen due to not having been able to get one till now as there has just been nothing available theyve all been a lot more money for not so good vehicles or theyve gone before we got a look in :/

Well hes pleased, he needed a van/truck the festa has done a good job and is still holding its own ...















im off to bed now been a long long day x




Tuesday 21 September 2010

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz ing

Sorry im not about much :/ im snoring for England, just so tired

Today i went in to work and left the car lights on all day ... flat battery, hubby not happy to come and jump start me and boss came out just as we were doing it ... how embarrassing !

I got to speak to my yo friends the last few days, we are on different time lines and with this snoooozing im doing i keep missing them :( had a brill chat was great to catch up

I also have a sore throat OMG! what is it that i have to catch everything :( damn menopause depression back and leg pain isnt enough???


Any thing good happening ??
not much, just little bits with crappy bits between but i wont hold my breath :/

HA HA
that darn diet :/ raaaaaaaaaaaah lost 1lb yes its a loss but it should have been at least 2lb re the pmt and so i would have been able to say i maintained this week but now im a 1lb short so i guess that was a lb gain as im now only 41/2 lb loss latter part of last week was getting bad with the fair hotdogs and my toffee apple
after the 2lb gain pmt week i lost it a bit initially too so only had a good bit in the middle lol but i had hoped to maintain i guess the hotdogs were the lb i put on .... oh well still trying
its short blog tonight want to have a look at those im following but my eyes are blurring and i need to sleep again
night peeeeps x

Sunday 19 September 2010

OOOPS

Well, i have few followers (not suprised my content is a bit miserable :/ ) and seems ive lost one, I write this blog for me, its really helped to put my thoughts and rants and other randoms down, but its nice to know someone else may be interested in these erratic twitterings of mine bit of support.

But ooooops maybe they left because ive not been around ...
its just been so hard ...........

Firstly arghhh i went and got a job (yes mental breakdown moment what was i thinking) and its full time, ~(mega mental breakdown ) not being 100% its been a struggle. But even before that i was going through this sleeping thing part menopause? part recovering from my depression? part pain drain? guess a lot of parts accumalated so its hard, scuse the pun but im sleeping fo
r England :/ in between the work and then the necessity of laying up to relieve my back pain im getting little done and when i do get that moment there has been soooooooo much to catch up on and it wipes me out all over again (oh yes and that total wipe out week arghhh)

Whats happening ummm not much thats good as per usual
seriously inconsiderate neighbours (ignorant being the better word) so had big ...actually HUGE row with them, i ended the encounter with a swear word oops (anger) and they had the nerve to think i was going to apologise for it, i enlightened them on the fact that 'like hell would i' as far as im concerned i shouldnt have had to ask them to stop blocking our vehicles i
n , in the first place and then have them turn arsey on me , i asked politely and recieved several excuses as to why they were still going to, hmmmph! they have 5ft in front of the vehicle and they need to block me in??? and condesending idiots, looking down their nose at me when they live in a dirty filth hole ewwwwwwwwwwwww my house is spotless, they may not swear but my occasional spat out in anger swear word is nothing to what they live in .....my children were not brought up in their sort of filth .
Should things not improve i have a few things up my sleeve to help them decide not to block us in!


DIET
AHHHH the DIET ummm ummmm :/ ummmm
well last 2 weeks been a nightmare i put on 2lb pmt week so allowing for that, i struggled all week but managed to keep on track only to have the 2lb gain :( but i know its pmt, i do honest, sadly after weigh in i just blew it
, self sabotage! a week of fighting to be let down :( and from it, this week , ive just not been able to control it at all
im hoping to begin again tomorrow .... so need to get this weight off soooooo need to concentrate and work at it I CAN DO IT!

Main reason for the weight loss is that my body is feeling this last lot of extra weight and i need it to help aleveivate the pain my back and sciatica are suffering im soooooo sooooooo uncomfortable and i need to get this sorted

~GOOD BIT :/ahh yes there is one bit lol
We had the fair (see prev blog) i so love it, hard on my back (missed out on rides this year) but i was determined to go what ever i spent today snoring away and filling up on pain killers but i dont care i LOVE the fair.Liam (my grandson) is to old for being taken b
y nan and gramps now, we're ok for the money though lol some things never change, Loved his photo shopped pic so had to share lol


so all in all a good week end

We also went to local auction got my viki a nice dining table for £2 whoo hoo and we got 2 new shower trays
for £9 the pair ceramic equiv is from £50 upwards so bargain :D down side my feet legs and back are killing me sorry always a down side these days :( but mainly a real good weekend :D



Thats just about it f
or today ... im knitting mel some baby coaties shes due to have a little girl in november so not much time left and of course im in snooze mode most of the time lately ... so gonna have a quick knit before switching offnight peeps X

Saturday 18 September 2010

THE FAIRS IN TOWN WHOOO HOOO

LOVE IT ....... THE FAIR IS HERE i so wish i was a teenager again , and cant help feeling a little envious of the kids enjoying their youth and the fair ..... yes ive been there done it but with lots less freedom ummmm but loved every minute and would be nice to go back in time other then in my head but them memories are good :)


Sadly the show The biggest one day agricultural show in England after 100's of years is no longer the 3rd thurs in september along with the 3day fair which takes the whole town centre up, sadly they have moved it to july along with the loss of all the flower veg various animal displays and stalls some things just shouldnt change or at least not to that degree the whole event is now just a craft show as many others through out the country. The fair has lost a lot of the tourists that come with the show soooo all in all i dont think moving the show was a good move and feel our town lost a wonderful event!

Thursday 16 September 2010

Crap is wearing me down :/

~What on earth is the matter with people???

I sooooooo cant believe them and their rudeness ignorance and unbelievable arrogance



the one rule for me and another one for you. i will do as i wish and you should like it or lump it but if you do anything i will report you to the authorities or make your life miserable blah blah blah

snarl!!!!

Ive just had a huge HUGE row with the neighbours ... car parking this time ... they insist in parking their huge 4x4 right up to the bumper of our vehicles (on the road, we have little drive way space) when actually they have about 5ft in front ??? so why is it necessary to block us in? thougthless b*****ds sorry but grrrrrrrrrrrrrr so yesterday, i politely went out as the wife having parked gone in with her shopping and come out again to move the car further back just to make sure we couldnt move anywhere.... as i approached she said oh am i blocking you in ... i said well yes, ( doh! didnt say that out loud by the way)
she said: im just having abby (daughter) dropped off
i said : im not meaning now you have blocked us in all week, why do you need to pull you vehicle back so far?
she said we leave a little space for tracy (neighbour other side)
i then showed her the 5ft she left for them and asked why they she could leave them that amount of space but had to block us in so we couldnt move including just now when she went out of her way to come back out and move it tighter to our vehicles
i pointed out that she had already hit my merc
she said noooooooooo
i said oh yes and you only got away with it because by the time we found out we couldnt prove it
she said noooooooo
i said oh yes sarah you were seen but we just didnt know in time and we will be making sure you dont do it again
she said (quite snottily ) i will park my car out side my house if i want to
i said dont turn arsey with me , cos you wont like what you get back, if you so rude and ignorant as to continually block us in then i can be just as ignorant and i will begin with calling the enviromental health about that disgusting rat infested garden of yours, then i will call social services about the filthy house your bringing your children up in and i have a dozen or more other things i can be ignorant and arsey about
i then said dont F**k (soory peeps ) with me i will be your worst nightmare as long as you carry on parking there
she put her finger to her mouth to shhhhhh me
i said dooooo NOT even go there
at this point she scuttled past me and ran in
i had bearly shut my front door (FUMING) when the husband came to my door
he said does there seem to be a problem (omg F******G unbelieveable) sorry again !
i said yes but it seems your to ignorant to work it out
he said well firstly i think you owe sarah an apology
i said i dont F*****g think so!!!!!!!!
he said thats why
i said i will say and do as i like just as you do i how ever am not ignorant enough to cause you problems i dont deliberately block your vehicles in so you cant get out we actually go out of our way to make sure we dont but you dont give a shit!
you block us in and you think im going to apologise cos she gets snotty for being politely asked not to do so, and sends you round here cos she didnt like the reaction in invoked
he said i will come back when your calmer
i said dont bother, i wont be getting any calmer
at this point he walked away
i said when you apologise for us having to ask you to move your vehicles after blocking us in all week and causing all this in the first place i will explain to your wife why she wont be getting an apology
having reached his door i called over sit and have a little think about how you would like it if we did it to you and by the way while you look down your nose at us perhaps you could look around and clean up the filthy pit you live in its disgusting, i may swear occasionally when angry but my home is spotless so dont patronise me about swearing when your not only ignorant but live like that!
at which point he disappeared
IM SOOOOOOOOOOOO ANGRY RAHHHHHHHHH
tonight the 4x4 is parked with room for us to move our vehicles :D oddly tracy (the other neighbour has more than plenty of room i am puzzled however that they were willing to give her so much room and having hit our car once (although got away with it) were happy to block us in... what did we do to deserve that?? i think its this that angered me even more and the fact that she kept making excuses to park like that when she had another 5ft she could move up
is it me ?? can they really be that thoughtless rude and ignorant???

SADLY i seem to be surrounded but them (ignorant idiots that is) :(

on a lighter note the fair is here this week (sadly no THAME Show this year they moved it to july and lost out with all the flower displays plant stalls etc cos of course it was wrong time of year )
but we have the 3 day fair taking up the town




Sunday 5 September 2010

ooops its been a while :/

Unhappily ive been away for a while, trying to cope with full time working and the usual grind of daily life but also not really being 100% well, its taken its toll and ive been sooooooo tired.
Work is good and refreshing change to my domant life but i wish it was only part time.
Hubby and i have worked over my viki's house tidying and
finishing off all that we can and of course our own home has needed time too still lots to do.So whats been happening ? not much ive been so tired between all the grafting. Cleaning the house seems to be an on going chore that never ends :(

Ive begun the dreaded dieting again and so far a measly 31/2lb in 4 weeks :/ and ive been so good and worn out from the hard w
ork ive been doing in the gardens. Im soooooo tired and achey i should have lost huge amounts but no whilst i sit in the class (being the lowest loser) a pain of envy comes over me when other members say they had a bad week and only lost 3lbs omg its taken me 4 weeks to lose that :( :(
Am i doing something wrong? dont think so im following diet by the book im working off the calories (no its to soon to be musc
le gain as much as i would like to think it was ) I really cant work out how i ache like this and lost next to nothing ?Ive tried this week to reduce the cals a little more but after only 2 days its just left me hungry and had to really restrain myself from the naughty food so i went back to my book.
oh well plod on ........... and on ............ ive a long way to go!

Garden is getting done im well pleased with p
ond almost finished just waterfall to sort out and im even more pleased the hard work is done think it just about killed me i woke up with rigamortis on several occasions :/My grapes have been really lovely this year and were yum ... plums are now ripe and im munching through them, had some superb cucumbers but tomatoes not done so well, still we had a few and they taste sooooooo nice, nothing like home grownMy viki's garden is sorted for this year, we are gonna be doing a new driveway for her and that will be it at her place, ours needs to be finished this next year or so we plan to do a lot of flitting away abroad :DI got my bargain of the month from an auction, having had my lounge coffee table snaffled by Nick for his huge tv, i found this one at the auction for a measly £15 whooo hooo well chuffed :) My previous bargain was the rusty heron ive been after for a long long time about £70 -£80 i got it for £26 whhoooooooaaaa :D
Well im off to have a quick browse at the blogs i follow then bed im sooooooo tired and bit of a headache busy day at work tomorrow :/


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