I start work tomorrow i will be glad to get some routine - its a 3 month contract at same place as last time :
The new week isnt the end of the past bad week Joans funeral is Thursday and we are sitll having to fight for vikis car to be released costing more money than we can afford!
Next week or possible week after we have Daves funeral - tracy is trying to get it so her brother can attend, he now lives in australia tickets are £2000 and he will only have friday to monday so its necessary to make sure things are set up for him to come home say goodbye to his dad and fly home.
The weeks to come are also gonna be filled with dispair and sadness for tracy, and im sure to join in as its a loss to me and my family too :( Hes a huge loss and will be greatly missed
Despite trying to sort through the bad things this week and over the next few weeks, im hoping things will improve for all of us
Im so sad for my viki, she was so happy last week but we will sort it out, its only material things although stressful and has made us unhappy - but we will be happy again, she will be happy again.
The times ahead are gonna be hard, even the material things the problems that its caused, i have to keep that little bit of hope alive that these bad things are gonna end, that some time soon there will be good times to remember - 6 yrs is a long time to go on hoping with little to help keep hope alive :(
The diet - course its out the window and i was just doing so well i lost another 2lbs so thats the horrible 6lbs gone that i put on whilst ill over christmas.
Maybe being back at work will help me, with new routine maybe i can concentrate on other things and the sadness could be pushed aside with focus on some thing else
So whats next
Who knows??
I want willy to have a holiday hes sooooo tired maybe me working will help. I may look at postponing the boston trip to meet my Yoville pals - Ziva is unwell but recovering, Cindy is just recovering from a collapsed lung and she has financial commitments although she wouldnt really be affected as she wont have to travel like the rest of us, Rita has her parents unwell and is having to travel 4hours a day to look after them, and Brenda's mother is seriously unwell too :( - thing is when do things improve for us to say hey we can meet with out anyone of us having such problems that seem to be hitting all of us ??
Art exhibition i only sold a few paintings but made a little money, first time ive not sold most of them - Will and i walked round early so nothing had been sold by the time we left, we usually get the late tickets and i get to see when they are purchased the preview evening but this time i have no idea when they sold.
Collette the Orgainiser is leaving and im sad about that :( i met her replacement stuart, im hoping he will chase me as she always did cos im so useless :S
Hoping this next one i will have more time and get off my butt and get on with things instead of staring into air letting my life flit by !
Well bed calls early start tomorrow, im sure my next few blogs will be filled as usual with doom and gloom but im hoping and praying that things will improve - pandoras box had hope in there somewhere and im hoping it shines on me soon - im not sure how much more i can manage with out a little glimmer of things getting better :(
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