We had a great Christmas with my daughter and her partner having got engaged very pleased for her and her partner, nice to end the year on such a good note.
It was fantastic having all the family together but im exhausted there was an extreme amount to do on the house and lots to clear to make it reasonably back to looking like a house but i made it and im wiped out .. from clearing and cleanin and then having cooked for everyone when i finally sat down or do i men collapsed :/ i couldnt move i woke up tired and boxing day monday i had to work (also the tuesday) ive been off since and im still cleaning and clearing and shopping ughhh
I have barely sat down and its been so busy at work i truly am exhausted to a point of no return i think :/
We are absolutely delighted that we get another wedding in the family it will be afew years yet saving etc but most of all i know they are very happy together, i knew from a young age my daughter had no intentions of marrying and she has been in a few long term relationships but i knew with this one she was different so when her partner proposed i wasnt as surprised as i might have been i guess its finally her time :)
I partied locally for new years eve with friends (not the friends) we had a superb time and gate crashed a party it was brilliant we got home about 4am - the 'other' friends partied else where i choose nowadays as to where and when i wish to be with them and for the most i guess ive put things aside as ive found it necessary for me and i call them friends and we have good times but for me there will all ways be the betrayal especially of one of them trust will never be there again and the main betrayer shows often in small ways that she cant be trusted but it no longer matters they no longer have my heart just the friendship i wish to give to them if and when - i have other friends good friends maybe they arent as close as the others were but for that now i have no real close friends maybe some one will come around and i will trust again one day ... who knows ?
THE DIET
oh yes here it is again :/ im Jayne finnegan begin again (again again etc) again :/ started today 2nd jan juiced and souped and salad upped i am the heaviest ive ever been - having been dogged with illness diagnosed with fibro shit myaglia some thing or other its been a struggle plus working and with my mega tired wipe outs its been hard plus ive had that lovely menopause playing hell with me too - i feel like a hunny monster but im to wiped out to do anything ... however, ive not given up trying so here i am starting again . Exercise well i dont think i can at the moment its so difficult and especially after the overload of christmas and work jeeeeez so i will do the food thing for now and then try for more later ... i so need to lose the weight ... and i have a wedding some time in the future :)
THE SAD BAD HORRIBLE BIT :/
For us sadly it begins as many have for the last 10 yrs we had news that my nephews wife only 32 only has 8 weeks :( its heartbreaking news they have a 2 yr old, she has a misdiaganosed melanoma and when they finally checked with a biopsy it was to late as its an agressive one. ... what can one say we are all devasted.
So not such a welcoming 2016 as it might have been it was all looking good but as per usual some thing nasty has stepped in to cause pain in my life - New year is always difficult for me any way i had a previous love who betrayed me on new year and now its bitter sweet that betrayal stuff doesnt leave you it was sooooooo many years ago and he means nothing to me now but the pain pops its head up every year :/ but i grit my teeth shove it back away in the darkest depth of my head and heart and go celebrate the things i have and am lucky to have :)
There is much to look forward to, yes we have to get over a major heartbreaking hurdle but we will move on as we have done before and tuck it away with other heart aches.
Heres hoping for 2016 to be better as it moves forward we need some thing good ONCE AGAIN - HAPPY NEW YEAR X
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