All been on hold but back up and running :)

Well been tough few weeks - I've been in sleep and eat mode :( 
 I now know why - the montly rubbish is back - that menopause thing isnt quite gone ughhhhhh

I've slept lots, ive been totally wiped out so my diet has not gone anywhere - 

The Diet 

yep its gone no where - BUT ive  not gained  = phew!! im back on track but its hard as im still not to well- i did a major work out today so chuffed with that - eating is hard to control when im tired and unwell - its my main downfall and pmt i get cravings in addition - i am however TRYING and trying 
Back on track to some degree 

Nothing changed on the 'so called friends' front other than more crap (which has not helped this last few weeks with me being low anyway ) talk about kick you when your down! Sure my 'best' friend is rubbing my nose in it 'oh off to have a chill drink with the girls' blah blah - yeah thanks for that friend who is with MY friends who didnt even know then or play darts but for me !!! grrrrrrr
and then defending the one that snubbed me all evening 'oh she was upset ' oh I WASNT THEN??? yeah thanks for that too - i dont care how upset anyone is ignoring anyone all night is rude and ignorant and more so when its your friend - i didnt ignore  her and I WAS UPSET  as i didnt do anything that warranted the shit i had for saying i thought it was her mums turn to drive - how pathetic!!
Yes im still upset and angry - but only because ive been made the villian and it seems one rule for them another for me they can discuss me and make up stories but i whose not said a word gets accused of all sorts :/ SNARL

So ranting again - i am so tired of putting up with other peoples crap when they are perfect then they can condem me but not until
Maybe they should look at their own behaviour before condeming other people!

So trying to cope with all these nasties around me during the time im trying to cope with THE nasty ughh again and i really could do without it - im desperately trying not to go back to that pit. Its hard with no support - i have friends but my close friends are gone now and its painful they were my best and closest friends and to be treated like that - well one more obstical to get over then i get to put them all aside.

Other stuff??

Nick is bit home sick i think - hes suffering the heat out there and money is bit short as he cant work there yet - hes lost lots of weight too the diet clearly affecting him. over all - things seem good though

Vik is doing well at her job im so pleased for her - i think she and danny are getting on very well 
Liam is being a bit teenager ish at mo but otherwise all is good 


Things in general are good - we are currently doing the drive way finally getting back to normal lots of our home has been on hold and got messy and untidy since ive been ill its so nice to see it getting back to normal . We have the main drain run outside our house (from the road) there must be a broken pipe for years we have had rat problems coming up through the pavement - its been reported many times but they dont even repair the pavement let alone the pipe and sorting the rats -they have buried under our driveway collapsing the block work (not for the first time) this time we  have put a concrete block there so they have major work to get there again :/ although i hope it deters them entirely this time, we took up the old blocks cleaned them down and put them back and it looks pretty much like new - just one small bit do - we are gonna repair a small part of the pavement too as we want our house to be nice and the council wont do it they looked at but never did anything about the last rat hole so no hope of them re doing the pavement . We are gonna re facia the porch that will be the finish out front :) the garden is looking pretty  some pics of the work , drive and garden

the rat holes ughh

old drive weedy and started to dig out where collapsed to block the rat holes

blocks cleaned and started to relay them

tups wanting to help but locked in and not liking it - still on old bit of pathway

front garden our lovely tree had to be removed due to root problems

my wispey well

path blocks not done yet

my lovely agapanthus

my birthday clematis looks lovely on my well

bargain swing for £17 at auction 

my bargain swing from the auction just painted up

garden swing cushioned and painted :>D

 Action was a biggy saturday we were shattered but got some mega bargains this swing is one of them well chuffed for £17 

Friday we went to Ascot races had a great day was superb - hubby had a day off first in like forever !! and he enjoyed he likes to bet  - vik sorted it out through the sun and got us tickets for 9.50 63% off  well cool  - so heres the photos