Depression is a scary word to a lot of people, its been labled as 'mental' illness and because of that people tend to think its to do with crazy people mad people loonies what ever you like to call the people who are out of control usually with violence, mention mental illness and most think of someone out of control on a rampage this association is what makes depression scary.
In reality depression is something different to each individual, sadly it can lead to someone becoming out of control, sever depressions have been blamed for people taking the lives of their loved ones or committing suicide but its different for everyone that has it.
For the most part it seems to me that its a deep sadness within you, some people lose control because they can no longer cope with that desperate feeling of despair that never seems to end, there is a pain inside the never lets up. Most people at some time will experience that pain and despair with with grief, the sadness and loss, grief has different levels for different people, depending some what on who they have lost how close they were etc and the type of person they are, some have the strength to rally, some show emotions, some bottle it up, everyone grieves at different levels . Depression is any thing from feeling a little low to the scary feeling of wanting to die and not really knowing why and even to the extreme of being out of control the reason many fear the word depression/mental illness.
Through out my own depression i have been unable to function as a 'normal' person it didn't matter how often i told myself to stop being so stupid, it never stopped me crying for apparently no reason, it never helped me get out of bed or walk out the door i was stuck in this odd unreal world. My mole hills were mountains what others dismissed i made an issue out of, the tiniest slight or hurt me deeply
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