Hello hello hello :)
big clear up today the decorations and tree are now down i was gonna leave it to sunday but decided i needed to start clearing the outside lights will stay as its snowy and freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezing out there :S

My next task is to sort out my paintings for my exhibit in feb have 6 to do arghh omg i really need to get going on it dont want to lose my place. im quite happy with the couple ive started but only have the month to do all 6 and they are oils which also need drying time ... can see some of the old stuff on flicker link

Thing that im gonna be doing at this precise moment is have a cup of tea work out my new diet whilst i laze in front of a lovely roaring fire ... no lazing as of monday i really really need to get my head and body working at losing the weight and getting some fitness back.
I dont feel quite well enough to start job hunting,but will soon need to, i would like to get back in to office work part time but i know my concentration levels are still down near zero and obviously you really need to be thinking about what your doing in that sort of enviroment. I dont know what other options for jobs i can look for at the moment, our savings are very low now (almost extinct :S ) spent on finishing (well almost~) the long term build of the extension i have a temporary but nice workable kitchen (actually its nicer than some untemporary kitchens ive seen :/so im not complaining :)) most rooms have been given a quick lick of paint de-dusted lol and general clear up although still a way from finishing. Financially however, with losing my very good income and wills erratic earnings in the self employment building game where work is slow (if you can get it at all) im begining to get worried other than a couple of things we are paid up till feb but money is running out fast :( our investments cant be cashed in one still has 2yrs and other is 7yrs seems odd to have all that money and we are sat here with nothing :S but im pleased i put some away when i did i believe it would all have vanished by now) at least we will have some fall back even though we are looking at lean times at the moment. We will get by, we have been here before and maybe a little worse but im a worrier and i have to try and make sure worry of money doesnt start dragging me down im still fighting to get out of the dark hole i really dont want to slip back down after the climb ive had (not sure i could do it again :'( ) Sooo a job would be good, i may look for a little cleaning job although all jobs are scarce at the moment but at least it will be some income.

Well guess i had better get on, nick is back from his trip and along with will it looks like they want feeding :( arghhh
then back to sort this diet thing out... arghhh again lol quicker i do it quicker i get to sit back by the fire and get another cup of tea going :Dxx